Who Am I?

I cut my hair the way you say you like it
Have I got no free will?
I took the long way home to make a point about it
Now I'm late, but what a thrill
You can't be my responsibility
What if I want someone to take care of me?
When I put it like that, it sounds so fucking bleak
And I want you, but not like this

Been tryna be everything
But I can't be your rock, and your lover, your mom
And I've tried
Now I'm not anything
Just a painting that's meant to blend in with the wall
I'm tired
If I'm your everything, who am I?

See, when you get sad I find it all-consuming
So can you just not get sad?
I'll look like a fool
Feel like a failure tryna be your saviour
Dancing 'round the room tryna make you laugh

Been tryna be everything
But I can't be your rock, and your lover, your mom
And I've tried
Now I'm not anything
Just a painting that's meant to blend in with the wall
I'm tired
If I'm your everything, who am I?

I-I
Who am I?

I'll try and I'll try till it eats me alive
And I'll do what you want till I'm something I'm not
I'd jump and I'd run to the edge and beyond
And for what?
Do my best till there's none of me left

Been tryna be everything
But I can't be your rock, your lover, your mom
God, I've tried
Now I'm not anything
Just a silhouette of the person I was
If I'm your everything, who am I?