Invisible Armor

I'm sorry I've been so cold
I'm guarding and I'm hardening bone
At times it feels impossible to trust again

That soft center of faith
Is where I long to stay
But memory jolts me away to self-protection

My invisible armor
Serves no purpose any longer
I am lonely at the center of my life

I want to lay my sword down
I want to cry, I want to come home
I don't want to be this strong anymore

I'm slipping off this skin
One I no longer fit in
A traumatized version of myself

My invisible armor
Serves no purpose any longer
My invisible armor weighs me down
My invisible armor
Serves a futile imaginary battle
I am looking at the meaning of my life

So brave, so shy
So vulnerable, so alive
I'm on a high wire above myself

My invisible armor
Another life lived and discarded
I was tilting at the windmills of my past
And you are here now waiting for me
You believed and saw right through it
I am standing at the center of my life
My invisible armor
My invisible armor
My invisible armor weighs me down