Own Valentine

Found a new companion
But I couldn't read the signs
Carnations and chocolate
For my first real valentine
Making her feel awful
For her plan to break it off
I knew I could shield her from hard feelings
If I could abandon mine
Passed her a note in history
Through her best friend by her side
You can't help not liking me
I let her off the hook
Expertly erasing
How badly shook I was

'Cause something heavy
Wouldn't let me
Be my own valentine

Always on the TV
A better way to be me
Hoping someone finally sees

Well, how about that best friend
Who sees me being sweet
The scorned flowers and candy
She's delighted to redeem
While the one who loves me waits
Withering inside
Quieter than ever now
Unseen, languishing
While I chase anyone
Who even looks at me

'Cause something heavy
Won't let me
Be my own valentine