The Horrible Child

Look at me closely, I'm the face you didn't want to see
A shameful secret you couldn't understand
You swore eternal love to me, that everything would be okay
But when I was honest, you lost me too

You told me I was weird, that this wasn't natural
That I didn't fit in with you, that I was sick, that I was wrong

No one loves me, no one accepts me
Because I'm transgender, I'm your perfect shame
Including the one I loved, the one who said it was love
Today he leaves me out of disgust and it breaks my heart

In your eyes I saw the contempt you tried to hide
Your voice trembled with fear, with sorrow, with what people would say
You let go of my hand, you said goodbye
And I felt my chest break in two

You tell me again that you're sorry, that you don't know what to think
But in the end, I'm trash you can't embrace

No one loves me, no one accepts me
Because I'm transgender, I'm their perfect misfortune
The love I had died of terror
I'm a monster in your story, I'm your worst mistake

If I could erase myself, if I could keep quiet
Everything I am that you can't love
But even if I hate myself, even if I want to leave
I'm still here breathing, unable to pretend

No one loves me, no one accepts me
Because I'm transgender, I'm the open wound
Including the one I loved, who swore to protect me
Today, a disgusting thing calls me and breaks my heart