At Peace

Hedge every bet, lick every boot
Make every appeal
Prostrate yourself to the killing machine
To spare yourself from its wheels

Better them than me
Rolls so seductively off your tongue
Your reckoning has begun

In spite of endless war, extinction-level events
Depredation and plague
Every one of your ancestors survived
To reproductive age

The probability that you are even here
Is next to none
Hey, no pressure everyone

When shit got dark, I had to face it alone
There'd be no crying for help
It's just how I'm wired
I've had to figure shit out my whole life by myself

I ain't saying it's cool, it's fucked up
Truth be told, it's cost me a few friends
Sometimes you must protect yourself

Fucker, I'm resourceful, resilient
I power through the waves of disappointment
Maybe not quite thriving, but I'm buoyant
I am at peace these days
Give or take a fit of blinding rage

I can't seem to shake the belief
That there's a liminal state between
Death and rebirth in which you and me
Reconvene

Oh, yes, I'm really fun at parties
Draw a dick on my face with a Sharpie
Excuse me, sir, this is an Arby's
I am at peace

I am at peace
Though presently convulsed with grief
I am at peace

Some days I'm scared I'm gonna die
Or even worse, I might survive
I try to keep these words in mind
Nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight
Gotta kick at the darkness till it bleeds daylight