Breakdown

You were acting crazy, the whole damn time
We never matched, everyone warned me
And you were so ugly, so unbearable
Oh, I don't know, what I was thinking

By month two, I wanted out
But I had no strength to get up and leave
How could it be?
If when you spoke
I rolled my eyes internally

Still stuck, still frozen
I'm trying to understand
How could I keep holding your tedious hand

But like always, something strong in me
Pulled me out of another nightmare
Now I'm here, in my best phase
Making art, seeing everything clear

That second chance
When I found out you, the other girl
I changed completely
My distrust, made me paranoid
I was always high, it was all your fault

My therapist even called you out
Begging for help 'cause I was buried
In a bitter escape, chasing shadows
Tracing you in every mistake

Still stuck, still frozen
I'm trying to understand
How could I keep holding your tedious hand

But like always, something strong in me
Pulled me out of another nightmare
Now I'm here, in my best phase
Making art, seeing everything clear
And what about you? I don't give a fuck
Even thinking of you makes me sick
Cause your poison's hanging in the air
So tired, I'm done with your shit

I had a huge problem, you knew everything
Yet you changed your code, every fucking day
Acting suspicious, just to watch me break
Seu arrombado
And it worked out
You kept me crawling till the very end
Hair torn out, bruises on my skin
And you hurt me, almost every day
With my parents in the same house

But one night I screamed with all I had
Get off my back and leave me the hell alone
You tried to smash me
You said it's who I am
That made you do the things you did

And it's funny how the craving vanished with you
Maybe it was never the white
The real addiction
Was surviving you

But I finally broke free
But I finally broke free