Spiral

In the depths of despair I make myself home
(The only place I've ever known)
It draws me in
So I stare at the ceiling

Please salt my wounds
So I can prove to myself
That I feel something more than this nothing
But for now swallow me whole

I spiral into the dark
Watch me unravel as I fall apart
I spiral back to the start
Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

I fear you'll feel my burden
Disconnected in my brain
Pessimistic, I fixate
Self-inflicted injury
Masochistic misery

The abyss is convincing me
It's just how it is and always will be
Pinned my heart to my sleeve
You watched it bleed and mistook it for apathy

Please salt my wounds
So I can prove to myself
That I feel something more than this nothing

But for now I spiral into the dark
Watch me unravel as I fall apart
I spiral back to the start
Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

This chasm in my chest
It's only emptiness left
Expecting nothing less
I end where I began

I spiral into the dark
Watch me unravel as I fall apart
I spiral back to the start
Trapped in a cycle controlling my heart

I spiral
This chasm in my chest
I spiral
It's only emptiness