First To Cry

Last night I almost drove home to you
But I don’t know where you’ve moved to
We were always here and then we weren’t
Am I the only one that’s still hurt?

I go out every night
I'm no saint, I do this all the time
I lose a little on every try
I don’t know, I thought you’d be easier to find

Someone asked me if I was visiting ghosts
Or visiting friends?
I'm not really sure
I just don’t want the feeling to end
Someone said something that made me
Bring you up again
I just keep coming back
To all the places we’ve been

I'm not ready to miss you
I'm gonna have to learn how to

If it weren’t for the wine I’d be up all night again
No one is ever wake at 4am
I'm not really scared I'm just grieving
It gets harder to accept you’re leaving

I go out every night
I'm no saint, I know it isn’t right
I lose a little on every try
I don’t know, I thought you’d be easier to find

Someone asked me if I was visiting ghosts
Or visiting friends?
I'm not really sure
I just don’t want this feeling to end
Someone said something that made me
Bring you up again
I'm doing the best I can
But I have so much of who I am

I'm not ready to get over you
I'm going to have to learn how to

I’ve never been good at goodbyes
I'm always the first to cry
You could destroy me
With just your eyes
I'm so weak when it comes to you
After everything we’ve been through
You took more pieces of me with you
Than anyone else

I'm always the first to cry
Over you