Nothing Hurts Anymore

I shouldn't do it, but I gotta do it
New lifestyle going stupid
Couple lines in this hotel
Try not to die, getting high when the coke sells

I'm getting tired but they tell me it's about endurance
Drop dead, get a bag off my life insurance
That's a modern day gamble
I'ma go for it, every other day a scandal

You know me, white socks and the sandals
But I'm an animal they put my head on a mantle
Got no respect for the way that I live life
They would rather go and get a bag then help me get it right

So what the fuck is a friendship
Dropped outta school, no degree with a vengeance
Nobody read any text I was sending
If I was really dying, no hand ever lended

Kinda free but at what cost
Ears ringing every single night, never gunshots
Just thoughts in my head that evaporate
Until it's 4am and I'm past the day

And then I'm past the night
Can someone pass a drink
Or maybe pass a lighter
I just need the fluid

Set my throat on fire
Now my mind is peaceful
But my body's dying
I feel kinda free