The Last to Go

I found out the soul's the last to go
All the colours draining from the world I know
And all my careful calculations scattered on the wind
'Cause you told me I was special, I wanted to believe

Took your words, I felt the weight of gold
Surrendered to my faith in love so bold
You built for me a pedestal, a cage I could not see
Relinquished my ambitions so you could still feel free

Now who am I? These bones and skin
This old façade is paper thin
My armory depleted, my soldiers have deserted
I've given all I have to give
I've carved myself into the mold I thought that I could fit in
But I'm never gonna fit in
So, take it or leave it, I'm out, I'm done bleeding for you

I'm so done with trying to concede
Smoothing over ruptures, lies, and greed
Searching for my part in it, my place to take the blame
It's exhausting and demeaning, swallowing this shame

Now who am I? These bones and skin
This old facade is paper thin
My armoury depleted, my soldiers have deserted
I've given all I have to give
Carved myself into the mold I thought that I could fit in
I'm never gonna fit in
So, take it or leave it, I'm out, I'm done bleeding for you