Paid In Full

I was nowhere near ready
When all it ended
So I hoped we could find a new day
Cannot live without you

You gave me the chance
Time and again, in vain
Now my feelings for you
Every tear, every smile
Paid in full
Break the chain, but no longer
Can I take the pain?

It's hard for me
To love myself right now
I've waited, hated
Blamed it all on you
Needed to be strong
Yet I was always too weak
So I can only blame myself
For this state we are in
I will take what you have
For me now, if it's not too late
Did you change? I did too
Love can grow from the last grain

It's hard for me
To love myself right now
I've waited, hated
Blamed it all on you

I need you less and less
Every day
Feeds this moral decay
Yet I have grown to
Love you even more

I fall back, and
I turn another cheek
You mouth the words
You're not ready to speak
You're scared of me now
No I never had a clue
That I'd become so much
Stronger than you

I will take what you have
For me now, if it's not too late
If you like, I will leave
I will not miss the last train again

It's hard for me
To love myself right now
I've waited, hated
Blamed it all on you
It's hard for me to love
Your face right now
I'm waiting, hating
Needing being me

I need you less and less
Every day leads us
Farther away
From that moment
It's hard for me
To hate myself right now
Finally I'm understanding me
One day we may have whole
New's me and you's
But first I need to learn
To love me too