November

One bleak November
I remember
I stood too numb
To feel the chill of winter
My heart so dead and broken
Its pieces already frozen
Slumped against the barriers in my brain
Never feeling love
But never feeling pain
I vowed every day
That I wouldn't feel this bad again
How I try
I try and I try and I try to change
Yet the hollow ache remains
I grit my teeth to feign my way

Head down, barriers up
Nothing can pierce through an armour this tough
Head down, barriers up
Nothing will pierce through an armour this tough
Head down, barriers up
Nothing come close to my heart

I'm sad that I'm freezing over
I'm sad that I'm turning to stone
When your eyes, they are like embers
But your light makes me feel more alone

I'm sad that I'm freezing over
I'm sad that I'm turning to stone
When your eyes, they are like embers
But your light makes me feel more alone

You remind me of a warmth
From so very long ago
You remind me of a love
That I will never know

Head down, barriers up
Nothing will pierce through an armour this tough
Head down, barriers up
Nothing will ever come close to my heart
Head down, barriers up
Nothing will pierce through an armour this tough
Head down, barriers up
Nothing will ever come close to my heart