Hard To Find

Your words hurt more than you think
In your head, these situations end in a blink
But the worst is usually these little lies
Why can't you see it through my eyes?
I understand you're trying to be cool
Your so-called friends are slowly transforming you
Into a person I never thought existed
And at the moment, really wish didn't

Who are you?
You're not the girl I used to know
You had my back when I would go
Be there through high and low
Who are you?
It's like you wanna start a fight
But when I'm in the spotlight
Suddenly it's alright
You're plastic, imperfect
You're scared to fall
Try to knock me down
When you find a flaw
These games you play
Are messing with my mind
Making you and I so hard to find

Never thought you'd treat me
Like a fool
But once again, you've lost the old you
One day, you'll have me laughing
Till I can't breathe
And the next, can you even see me
When you look at me with guilt and insecurities
You'll have to know
You're choosing who you want to be
You don't even think from time to time
That's why you're losin' someone close
And so am I

Who are you?
You're not the girl I used to know
You had my back when I would go
Be there through high and low
Who are you?
It's like you wanna start a fight
But when I'm in the spotlight
Suddenly it's alright
You're plastic, oh perfect
You're scared to fall
Try to knock me down
When you find a flaw
These games you play
Are messing with my mind
Making you and I so hard to find

We made so many promises
You never really made them
Then you'd always go and break them

What if it were like when we were kids?
When I told you all my secrets
Back then you would keep them

We both wanted to be on top
We were getting there together
Taking your own measure
So please don't try to knock me down
No matter what you try I will come back around

You're plastic, imperfect
You're scared to fall
Try to knock me down
When you find a flaw
These games you play
Are messing with my mind
Making you and I so hard to find