Broken

As I open up my window
Feel cold shivers down my sleeve
My eyes are hurtin' bad
Because I don't get sleep
Yea

I have been daydreaming about
A perfect world
Where I can break the bounds
But I ain't sure
If I'll be around
To see this perfect utopia

And when I fall
I need to stand up by myself
No
Nobody is willing to help
Me
And I don't know what am I gonna be

Shattered in pieces
Like a pickle jar
Not who, not him but a couple
that's whom am I
A unity, a duet
An one man band

Schizophrenic?
Maybe
But I'm not crazy
I'm not like the other guy
I'm a different brand
I'm a shiny star

When I look at the mirror
I don't see anything
Just a pointless waste of oxygen
That I call me

Burried in my yard
there's the corpse of a hoe
How did it got there
I don't know

People around me eighter distance themselves or drop dead
Its just like that
I'm still not sure if dislike that

I try not to get edgy
that's who I choose to be
Even tho its not me