A CALL BEYOND

If you get to heaven and you don't find me there you are in hell
I lost control

I have never cried a tear of joy
Sadness surrounding my fucking life
A frozen dream, a broken memory
Reality is my enemy
Life is a sucking, oozing, open wound that never closes
Beaten and bruised

I have no love left
I have no love left to give

We will never be anything more than the stories we have told
The world is my oyster, but it's rotten and covered with mold

I lost control

Six feet further from God, six feet closer to hell
My heart is a hole
My mind is a tomb where no flowers grow
Bury me vertically with my head exposed
So the world can see me decompose