Arcturus Beaming

I thank these walls
My hideaway
My sanctuary to worship the pain
I never thought I'd leave the cave
But I'm more curious than afraid

Stacking layers
Like sediments
Each one adding weight
Compression and I'm tired of forming the cliff-face inside of my chest now
My ribs ache from carrying it around

Craning my neck
I'm looking up
I'm putting all that I gave up
Eyes focused on
A pin of light
Arcturus beaming on a summer night

Do you wonder
Who's looking back
Another lifeform on some undiscovered planet
A myriad of us here, but they're pointing up at our Sun and
Asking themsеlves what exists beyond, bеyond, beyond, beyond

These blinding nights
This reckoning
There's more to life
Than suffering
But there's still time
It's not too late
Nothing will change until I change