Open Minded Surgery

Like open minded surgery, I'm taking out the worst in me
and everything that I have done
it's coming back reminding us that we can't run forever
"am I alone?" is all I ask, cause I'm not really good at this
all you've done is distract

it feels so cold

six months since I've had control of my life
where everything is on its own
it's coming back reminding us that we can't run forever
if I could see myself now, I wonder if somehow I could be proud of me
or turn away and run, and not come back forever

november's never been this warm
but somehow I feel cold inside
forgiveness is a prayer away
but I can't get on my knees and fight my pride
(it feels so cold now)

sooner or later I will get better
I'll be myself again soon