Lament

Hear my lament!
With my head in my hands, I wait for answers
But in the cold I feel so alone
Trapped and buried beneath the burden of a conscience of billions
Decaying and deceiving in the browns and greys of antipathy
Dwelling with the dissection of motives and memories
Look me in the eyes till only the whites remains

I cannot breathe
These leaden arteries, I cry for reprieve
I cannot breathe
These leaden arteries, they are all I know
I cannot breathe
These leaden arteries, blackened with decay and grief
I cannot breathe
These leaden arteries, they’ve reaped what you’ve sown

The heaviest heart that ever existed (I cannot breathe)
It pins me to the ground with crippled limbs
Choking, facedown in the shit and swill
And I reflect “Why should we exist?” (I cannot breathe)
The light only hides the shadows that have always existed
But will it be enough?

What have I done, what haven’t I done?
It was never enough
Lost, shamed and guilty, deep down I know you tried
I know I tried
But it wasn’t enough
It was never enough

Hear my lament
Watch me grieve
I cannot trust
I cannot breathe
Hear my lament
And watch me grieve
I cannot be trusted
I cannot breathe
Hear my lament
I’m so fucking sorry