Dear Old Friend

Scared for my life, I'm breathing and keeping thoughts away
Well it's a shame I'm too afraid to fall asleep
It's insane how far we'll go and what we'll do to keep them from pain
It's my life, it's my time, it's my code I live by
I'll just keep telling myself that it's right and I'm fine

Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again
I can see you and me on a slate that was clean
I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street
I could hardly spend a minute in reality
Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming
I was weak you would all speak and try to save me but I was taken like a tragedy

Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again
It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again

I fall asleep to escape all the guilt and all the pain
Pillowcases soaked in blood, I smoked away my fucking lungs
And if it hurts you just to face me
And if you're trying to erase me
Know I'll be waiting for the next time
And I'll be praying that you take my life

Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again
It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again
Trapped in this hole again!

The less you care the less it hurts
You can mask it or you can take your own fucking life

I can see you and me on a slate that was clean
I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street
I could hardly spend a minute in reality
Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming
I was weak you would all speak and try to save me
But I was taken like a tragedy
I've been taken like a tragedy