Who You Really Are

(Apotheosis)
(Taking me down in doses)

Told me I could text if I need you there
Fingers going numb 'cause I'm unprepared
Conjure ways to read my mind
'Cause I'm afraid to go outside
In the Sun and the summer air
Everything I hated has brought me here
To trip over these power lines
And self-destruct in common time, but it's fine

'Cause I got all that I wanted, right?
And I wouldn't wanna waste your night
I'll keep it all to myself
'Cause this part of the story don't sell, does it?

I go dark in the daytime
Crashing like a broke down car
Then you say: Fight the war in your head, but don't forget it's not who you really are
Tried so hard for a lifeline
Telling you I won't get far
Then you say: Fight the war in your head, but don't forget it's not who you really are

Taking me down in doses

You pull me in seven directions
I don't know if I need a human connection
What is the opposite of moral intention?
'Cause I redact my past every time that I realize it's passed, and that's sad
Sad as fuck
Can melodrama be done?
Sick of everyone acting like they're impossible to love
Better numb your tongue
Better keep talking till the Sun comes up
Feeling good? Thumbs up

I'll be fine, 'cause I got all that I wanted, right?
And I wouldn't wanna wreck your night
Bottle it up and keep it inside
If I'm lucky I'll end up with a couple good lines

I go dark in the daytime
Crashing like a broke down car
Then you say: Fight the war in your head, but don't forget it's not who you really are
Tried so hard for a lifeline
Telling you I won't get far
Then you say: Fight the war in your head, but don't forget it's not who you really are