Spilling the Seed

She smiles at me
and I see
milk in her breasts
She smiles at me
and I see
heat on her breath
She smiles at me
and I see
sadness and death

My brother's dead
so she said
I am a weed
My brother's dead
so she said
you know my need
My brother's dead
so she said
I need your seed

But then again
can it end
with smiling eyes
But then again
can it end
with me inside
But then again
can it end
without a lie

I spilled the seed
on her knee
and on the ground
I spilled the seed
on her knee
as we laid down
I spilled the seed
on her knee
and then she frowned

A bittersweet
memory
sticks in my soul
A bittersweet
memory
won't let me go
A bittersweet
memory
is just a hole