Hard To Kick

Sometimes I wish for death
Because of things I am dealing with
And I know where you're going
Don't ask where you're going
Tell me why you're hurting me

I know you see me drowning here
And now you acting like you never cared
Your cold heart is knowing
My soul is what you're holding
Can't you just let go of me?

But I'm so thankful
I didn't end up with what I thought I wanted
But I want it
But loving you is hard to kick

But I'm so thankful
I didn't end up with what I thought I wanted
I never thought I'd survive
'Cause loving you is hard to kick

Oh I, oh I, oh I
Oh I, oh I
Oh, yeah, yeah
But I want it

'Cause loving you is hard to kick
Used to really think that you were mine
Now I really feel lost in my mind
Now when I really look in your eyes
All I really ever see is your lies
I don't know what to call us yet
I don't know where to find us
Why you tryna divide us?
Why you tryna fight us?
I guess I'll never know who hurt you
I guess I'll never know if I was the one for you
But I don't wanna fight
But bad habits are so hard to kick

I'm so thankful (I'm so thankful)
I didn't end up with what I thought
I wanted (I didn't end up with you)
But I want it
But loving you is hard to kick

But I'm so thankful
I didn't end up with what I thought I wanted
I never thought I'd survive
'Cause loving you is hard to kick

I'm so thankful (I'm so thankful)
I didn't end up with what I thought
I wanted (I didn't end up with you)
But I want it
But loving you is hard to kick
I'm so thankful (I'm so thankful)

I didn't end up with what I thought I wanted (What I wanted)
I never thought I'd survive
'Cause loving you is hard to kick

Oh I, oh I, oh I
Oh I, oh I
Oh, yeah, yeah

You know I want this
But you not really worth the risk