Blue Mist In My Head

I just wanna be real
Sadness holds me hostage when you're near
Like a depression machine
A picture of good health till I go deep
It's only when I get down
People keep pretending I'm a frown
Coping with a disease
But the bright lights couldn't protect me

From the ten-mile stare
And when I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me, I guess

I keep it on the inside
Smiling through my broken teeth again
But when I cross the line
I lose myself, unleash pure bitter hell
It's only when I get down
People keep pretending I'm a frown
Coping with a disease
But the bright lights couldn't protect me

From the ten-mile stare
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me, I guess

No memory for forgetting
No commitment in your presence
No solution to the struggle
No forgiveness for your penance

From my ten months there
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me
Truth is I am scared

From the ten-mile stare
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me, I guess

From the ten-mile stare
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me, I guess