This Is For You

do you remember,
cold california night,
you held my hand and swore you'd never let go?
i guess while i was counting stars,
you were hoping for a rainbow to come
and change things in your mind.

and i know,
this time,
this is for you.
the one that made me laugh,
and then you made me cry.
this is for you,
the one that faded out,
and never said goodbye.

so close your eyes tonight,
and sleep in your bed alone.
i've been holding this inside of me
for longer than you've known.
it's unfortunate how everything i never said could have even got thru your head,
for once.

this is for you,
the one that keeps me strong,
when i try to be weak.
this is for me,
and everything i don't say,
because i always thought you'd see,
this is for you.

(i don't know you, i don't.
i can't hear you, i won't.
i don't know you, i don't.)