In My Head

Its in my head, won't go away, can't stop the thoughts that drain me.
All form of control leaves and all I have is me.
A sheltered, black room, blank canvas no colour staining.
And I try to break this chain but all I feel is so cold.

I've tried hard to rid myself of this.
I've tried hard to wash away the hate.
I've tried hard to rid myself of all things that I hate, all the things that hate me.

I don't want to change, not even for you.
Coz I'll always be this way, the sinner in me is you.
I don't wanna feel this pain in all that I do.
Now that I've paid the price, I still can't escape from you.

Now I can't, remember what its like to feel sanity.
I've lost all, respect I once had for a world thats always hated me.
I won't be, a scapegoat, I'm exactly what you've made me.
Waste product, the refuse, your worst nightmares are within me.

I try hard to rid myself of this.
I try hard to wash away the hate.
I try hard to rid myself of all things that I hate, all the things that hate me.

I don't want to change, not even for you.
Coz I'll always be this way, the sinner in me is you.
I don't wanna feel this pain in all that I do.
Now that I've paid the price, I still can't escape from you.