My Need

Sometimes there's nothing you can do
Life just grabs you by the neck & strangles you
Shitty days become the only way
When you think you're at the bottom
They can kick you even lower
There's nothing you can do
It won't help to try & think it through
The only painless part of your day is when you sleep at night
Just pray you'll sleep OK

Next time I get a fist in the face
I'll stay on the ground so I don't take too much space
My pain is your demand
& by asking you've made me what I am

I have learned to crawl-learned not to talk
Not to exist & laugh only by myself

Now even when I close my eyes I see what fool I was for trying
Dreaming, hoping, standing up to my mistakes

You keep tripping on your naïveness
& I keep falling on my face

Next time I get a knife in the eyes
I'll crawl around the floor & act like I am blind
Cause my pain is your demand
& by asking you've made me what I am

Don't need to smile I don't need to breathe
You've made me strong by showing me I was weak