Boys

These hands that are cold
Know just how I feel
No other can show you the place I’m living in
A place you’ve never been to
Not too long ago
I figured it out
All the sleepless nights
Silent thoughts screaming loud
I think I’m ready now

So I’ve said my goodbye to the faking
‘Cause I spent too much time
In a life that ain’t mine
All the years that I’ve wanted to say it
‘Cause it’s clear in my mind

Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys
‘Cause they’re always somewhere in my head
Used to never really understand it
Now I’m never hiding from myself

Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys
Here’s to all the years that I regret
Used to never really understand it
Now I’m never hiding from myself

Far too long in the dark
And silenced by the crowd
Now I raise up a flag to contrast all the doubt
The colours that I’m proud of
Someday when I grow old
I’ll tell my younger self
That I’d rather be real
Than leave my life on a shelf
And be somebody else

So I’ve said my goodbye to the faking
‘Cause I spent too much time
In a life that ain’t mine
All the years that I’ve wanted to say it
‘Cause it’s clear in my mind

Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys
‘Cause they’re always somewhere in my head
Used to never really understand it
Now I’m never hiding from myself

Guess that I’ll be good with loving boys, boys
Here’s to all the years that I regret
Used to never really understand it
Now I’m never hiding from myself

Boys, boys, boys, boys, boys
Boys, boys, boys, boys
I’ll be loving boys, I’ll be loving boys

Wish there was someone to tell me
In my darker times
There’s nothing to be ashamed of
And you’ll be fine