I'll Save Myself This Time

Couldn't forget the words they said
I know it's all inside my head
I know that it's all wrong
I should stick to a somber song

Couldn't forget the words they said
Like paper, there's too much to shred
Torn to pieces

Could I?
Leave it unsaid

Time
For the sickening disease won't take control
I'll do it on my own
I'll do it all alone this time
The connotations of the end
The implications that we read

I'm overanalyzing
Every word and letter that's inside
I wonder if I'm good enough
I wonder if I'm too fucked up
I wonder why I feel like I'm so fucking goddamn hard to love

Am I?
I won't take it

Time
For the sickening disease won't take control
I'll do it on my own
I'll do it all alone this time