Bruiseology

OK, it's over
That's it, I'm quitting
Yes, I'll deny it
Never wanted this anyway

No, it's not over
I'm never stopping
I can't deny it
I've been wanting this all my life

Or I can go back
Be the girl that I was
Before it's easy
Just admit I don't have the guts

But do I ever
Take things so lightly?
I am a fighter
Won't surrender all that I've gained

I'd say there's a conflict here
The right thing to do's not clear
Beat my brain up
Trying to fit the two sides together

(CHORUS x4:)
Then you hit me with the hard facts
Then everything cracks
And that's a bruiseology

It's just a simple
Change of direction
Just keep repeating
Wasn't really me all along

Over my shoulder
A fading figure
Someone who's different
By a hundred eighty degrees

Pretend this never
Happened, I better
Practice my crawling
Back with a tail 'tween my legs

Or is there somewhere
In this contradiction
Some place where
These two sides can meet?

I'd say there's a conflict here
The right thing to do's not clear
Beat my brain up
Trying to fit the two sides together

(CHORUS x4:)
Then you hit me with the hard facts
Then everything cracks
And that's a bruiseology

OK, it's over
No it's not over
l can always go back
But will I ever?
That's it, I'm quitting
I'm never stopping
Be the girl that I was
Take things so lightly
I can't deny it
I've been wanting this all my life

(CHORUS repeats til end:)
And then you hit me with the hard facts
Then everything cracks
And that's a bruiseology