I Was Never Made For Heaven

When the night falls over me
And the silence starts to grow
I can hear the voices calling
From the places no one knows

Every scar I tried to bury
Every ghost I left behind
Comes alive inside the darkness
Like a war inside my mind

I tried to be your shelter
I tried to be enough
But there's fire in my bloodstream
And it's burning through my blood

I don't wanna pull you under
I don't wanna let you drown
But every time you get too close
The walls come crashing down

When you look into my eyes
You can see the truth below
That's where all my shadows run
That's where all my demons go

Don't hold on too tightly now
You might fall into the smoke
Every broken part inside me
Built this kingdom down below

When the lights all fade to black
And the crowd has disappeared
I'll still hear the echo ringing
Of the things I used to fear

All the saints became pretenders
All the sinners wore the crown
And the world kept spinning faster
While we slowly burned it down

I was never made for heaven
I was never pure enough
There's a storm beneath my heartbeat
There's a darkness in my love

Still I wanted you beside me
Still I wanted something real
But the closer that you held me
The more I couldn't heal

When you look into my eyes
You can see the truth below
That's where all my shadows run
That's where all my demons go

Don't hold on too tightly now
You might fall into the smoke
Every broken part inside me
Built this kingdom down below

They say nobody escapes it
The weight we carry alone
Every wound becomes a memory
Every heart can turn to stone

But your voice cuts through the silence
Like a light beyond the storm
And for one brief moment, maybe
I remember who I was before

When you look into my eyes
You can see the truth below
That's where all my shadows run
That's where all my demons go

Don't hold on too tightly now
It's too dark to call it home
Behind every shattered feeling
Lives a king without a throne