Pain Killer

The last time was bad
This time is not much better than last

Buddy, I'm tired
Every light is dim
This too will pass

Is it on your shoulder
Is it even there?
It's the weight I imagine
Since the last time I saw you
Do you wonder
Do you care?
I know this moment I'll miss
It doesn't get much better than this

But the white horse will take me away
From the pain I can't kill today

I've been down some back roads
You can relate
You can relax
I can't think straight
I've been down and bad though
This one's with hate
This one's collapsed
This one I'll take

I'm in the margins
I'm under ice
It's the worst of decisions
Mixed with headache and trauma
Melodrama and me
For a second I'll wait
To reflect on the past
And what a self-centered mess I've made

But the white horse will take me away
From the pain I can't kill today
'Cause after all has been said and done
I am still my father's only son