Hopeless

Relapse I'm moving on like I could ever change
But when time goes by depression's the only thing
That stays with me
The only thing true to my name

I will find, an excuse to pass the time
And I will rely on distractions to subside
The thoughts I have in my mind, cripple and decide
The outcome of my day life, diminished by the night

But I'll say to you, I'm okay
With life comes pain and that's okay

Feeling like I'm hopeful, when everything is doubtful
I've been trying, I've been trying hard to decipher it
When one day I'm doing fine
The next is just crippling time
I'm imprisoned in my mind

The moments in life are mundane
Assorted with series of pleasure and pain
But my brain sustains
These factors of change as ill-minded
And it's killing me

Will I wake to see my friends?
Will I fall again and again?
But I know, these holes in my heart, are just temporary lies
I will try to live a better life

Feeling like I'm hopeful, when everything is doubtful
I've been trying, I've been trying hard to decipher it
When one day I'm doing fine
The next is just crippling time
I'm imprisoned in my mind

Relapse I'm moving on like I could ever change
But when time goes by depression's the only thing
That stays the same
The only thing true to my name

Feeling like I'm hopeful, when everything is doubtful
I've been trying, I've been trying hard to decipher it
When one day I'm doing fine
The next is just crippling time
I'm imprisoned in my mind