Dry Goodbye

I've lost count of how many times I've walked out that door
With the promise that this time would be the last
But you have the map to my fragility
You know exactly where to press so I'll stay a little longer
The problem isn't your absence
The problem is your way of coming back
With flowers bought at the gas station
And a smile that insists on working

And I know this will hurt tomorrow
I know this will stain
But your body has a language
That I never learned to let go of

I swear this is the last time
I fall for your kiss knowing the ending
I swear this is the last time
I trade my peace for your storm
This time it's serious, this time I'll go
But who am I to fight against us?

You talk about the future like you talk about the weather
Like saying: Tomorrow will be sunny
But your tomorrow never arrives on time
And I wait on the dock, with handkerchief and fishing hook
The bed still keeps your side empty
The pillow still has the shape of your hand
And I swear I tried to fill it with other people
But none have the same tone as your breathing

The worst part isn't the end
The worst part is the middle
It's this in-between we created
Where love is a mirror
That shows what we want to see
Not what I really am

I swear this is the last time
I fall for your kiss knowing the ending
I swear this is the last time
I trade my peace for your storm
This time it's serious, this time I'll go
But who am I to fight against us?

Who am I to say no
When your yes is so beautiful?

I swear this is the last time
I fall for your kiss knowing the ending
I swear this is the last time
I trade my peace for your storm
This time it's serious, this time I'll go
But who am I to fight against us?

Tomorrow, tomorrow I'll go
Today, today I'll stay
Just one more last time