Shields

I lock my door
So that nothing is stolen
My hands clench to fists
So that you cannot hold them
Anaesthetised
So that my life stays painless
I killed my soul
So that no god could claim it.

In broken lines walk so blind
Into shadows
..a smile, undefined..
Or is that a grimace of pain?
I know the truth,
But i cant believe it.
I learned in my youth
That power grows from hatred.

Invulnerable.

So miserable.

An aura of cold
Protects me from kindness
I choke out the sun
To save myself from blindness
A self-fulfilling prophecy
My misery it grows as time moves on
Thrive in darkness..
Killing everything that brings me hope.

I will be free. from all of you.
In my misery. no stranger to grief.
I will be free.
From all of you.
In this misery
Nothing is real.

Bring all your fires
Bring of your pain.
I am invulnerable...i am insane.
Bring all your fires, pain i cant feel.
I am invulnerable i wear my shields.

Nothing .. can touch me.