THE WEIGHT OF EMPTINESS

The colors slipped out through the window
Gray stayed stuck to my skin
Every morning is a ceiling caving in
Onto a body that isn't always itself

It's not pain, it's absence
It's the room shrinking with every breath
It's not weakness, it's gravity
Pulling the body to the ground

Weight of emptiness
No name, no scream
Just the silence rotting
Inside what I was and won't repeat
Weight of emptiness
I carry what can't be seen
While the world spins on, happy
I just survive, I know

Smiles I learned to draw on
Masks that fool no one
Only I know the size of the hole
I carry and pretend isn't there

The emptiness doesn't scream, it whispers and consumes
Every day a battle no one sees, no one names

Weight of emptiness
No name, no scream
Just the silence rotting
Inside what I was and won't repeat
Weight of emptiness
I carry what can't be seen
While the world spins on, happy
I just survive, I know

And the weight goes on
Even when I pretend to feel light