VEINS OF ESCAPE

I fill the void with what corrodes
Every sip's a funeral postponed
I don't drink to feel, I drink to forget
The nothing stuck in my throat

The relief lasts one second
Then it all comes back doubled
The escape turns into a cage
And I'm my own executioner, my own haunting

Veins of escape
Running to the same place
Every cycle is a rope
I help pull tight myself
Veins of escape
There's no finish line
Just the repetition
Of a borrowed soul

I promise to stop tomorrow
Tomorrow never really comes
The body craves what the mind denies
In a perfect, exact cycle

It's not addiction, it's anesthesia for a pain with no name, no cure
Every relapse a confession that escape isn't lightness, it's madness

Veins of escape
Running to the same place
Every cycle is a rope
I help pull tight myself
Veins of escape
There's no finish line
Just the repetition
Of a borrowed soul

And the veins keep asking
For what the soul won't forgive