Closer

I passed out, I couldn't stay awake
Today's not unlike other days
That led me to this place
They all feel the same, the same, the same

I struggle to build memories
And I can't feel what's inside of me
Or navigate this space at all

But all these thoughts and fears and words that
Imply I'm not trying
And hyper fixate on my failures, only serve myself

Caught in the days where the lines bleed together
Between the last scourge and the next failure
Seems every time that I've felt my life changing
It's not good or bad just an altered arrangement

I see it now, I see it now

My hopes betray reality
And I can't see what's in front of me
I'm consumed in a grind
With nothing to show for all this time

These moments pass and then they fade
Homogenize into the gray

Always exhausted, asleep in broad daylight
I wish I could sleep for the rest of my life
Too sore to move, awake, but still in bed
Glued to my sheets and trapped in my head

I'm calling it quits, I was fucked from the start
And all of the waiting tore me apart
The endless cycle crushes my heart
Our lives fall to shit, reform and restart

We get up each morning, the past on our shoulders
And live out the same days over and over
We fall into bed, brush the past from our shoulders
And relive the nightmare over and over

Do you see it now?
Do you see it now?
You read me like a book, didn't you?