stumble

We stumble into our dirty bedroom
Unload and undress, collapse into bed
Brushing away the past from our shoulders
Another night, another day older
We discard our regrets and sleep in our secrets

You realize you don't know how to tell me the truth
And I accept it
I'm never happy to see you

We wake up early
Every day for weeks
Drive for long hours
Take three person showers

You're counting the days until you see him again
Another night, another day spent
Shutting my mouth tight, looking on the bright side

We knew from the start
This would crush both of our hearts
But what can I say? We did it anyway

But it is okay
We figured things would end up this way
And it is okay
I know I'll stop breathing one day

And I'll never be able to justify
The ways that I lived my only life
Ijust want something to feel all right
Something to show for all this time
How many times will I pour my heart
Into another person's failure to move?
How many times can we give this a try?
And how many nights will I lie awake waiting?