I’d Rather Not Say

You were my mortality
In your absence, what is left to fear?
The remedy to my muted mind
To be blind is to see after all this time
Stuck in a stasis
Stagnant

Moments and words compound into days
Days turned to years and here I stayed
I like it here, everything has its place

Everything has its place but us
What is there left to feel once you've sank into the depths of love?

Blessed by the touch of the girl with the gift of Midas
Witness to her grace as shе creates and kills all she passеs
Fingers fractured by touch
Skin embraced becomes corrupt
Don’t you have anything to say for yourself?
Don't you have anything left to say?
Like how I shouldn't blame myself
Regardless of how many years too late it is for that to help?
A single second of clarity

How should I survive my darkest days
Without you to show me the way?
Show me the way
Show me
Show me the way
Show me the way
Without direction and in dismay, go
I cannot be the one that you need
And this phase of failure is sure to claim
All of the good things that we ever made
And once your voice is gone, you’ll just be a face, you'll just be a name
I know you only ever wanted what was best for me
And if intentions were actions we wouldn't speak
And if shame could be measured this would take all day
All for a few words I'd rather not say