One Moment from Disaster

I cannot maintain everyone's expectations of me
I am not your light I am not your guide
Only the product of life unrealized
Don't ask me for a fucking thing
'Cause that's all I can give consistently

This is not an apology
This is my declaration
A step from calamity
One moment from disaster
I don't know any better than you
I have simply come to terms with my own unrest

There is no control to be had anymore
This will all go on with or without me
I don't know what you want
I don't know what you need
But I know it's not me, it never will be

You will die and you will fade
And I will continue in the face of your amity abstained
In the company of none I am my own priority
Because I'm the only one that's not allowed to leave
My intentions are tragic
My existence is an accident

Don't make a habit out of thinking highly of me
To trust and to love
Is to concede our own human nature
Just because I'm here doesn't mean that I'm not a failure
Whether or not you realize

We could so easily survive each others loss
Do not allow me to destroy you, because I will
Living in the fallout of affection's longing
Just because you love me doesn't mean that I care
I didn't mean for this to happen
I move on with complete lack of notion or intent
But that isn't enough for anyone to give a fuck

No decency is owed
No decency is owed
I am not a person
I am your vessel
Fill me whole
Fill me whole
Fill me whole