Used To The Fall

Trying to stand here
Pretending that
I'm really okay when inside
I know all the hope is gone
Is like sitting all alone
At 5am in a hotel room
When all the coke is gone
I hold on to pain sometimes
Lit up by the fade of my fire
I'm too old to be chasing these highs
When first line is the only good ride
Sooner or later all the curtains gon' close
And the stage gon' fade to black coal
Everything that you ever dreamed of
Will be running right out the back door
Wake up at sundown
Hands up and get gunned down
By myself I'm my own worst enemy
A victim to the chains of my own stupidity

One day life's bitter
Next day tastes sweet
Maybe I hurt myself 'cause I'd rather feel pain
Than feel nothing at all
I hate coming down, touching my feet to the ground
But man I'm so used to the fall

Don't put your trouble on me
I got enough of that weighing on me
Already got enough demons I feed
Man leave me alone to just breathe
I hate coming down
Touching my feet on the ground
But man I'm used to the fall

Life seems like it's just about me
Losing everything that I never
Wanted in the first place
Till I slip and get attached
Then the devil takes it back
And it hurts in the worst way
I've been stabbed in the back so much
That I can't never trust nobody
I've been cut to the heart so many times
That I can't love nobody
Maybe I'm damaged goods
Half the time misunderstood
All the shoulds, all the coulds
Can't stop the Hatchet when it hits the wood
You can talk up fit
You can cuss, you can spit
You can dig my grave
But you ain't putting no chains on a man
That done spent life inside this cage