Losing Control

Waking up tired from the weight on my mind
Every smile I fake feels a little unkind
They say they know me, say they read my face
But they don't feel the pressure
When I'm stuck in this place

I try to explain but the words fall apart
There's a storm in my head
And a crack in my heart
They say it's a phase, say I'll be okay
But they don't live inside me
At the end of the day

I'm breaking, shaking, losing control
Pain takes a piece of my broken soul
I scream inside but my mouth stays closed
Surrounded by people, but still alone
I'm fading, failing, stuck in this pain
Tears hit the floor like the cold hard rain
I'm fine they say, but you don't really know
How it hurts just to live
How it hurts just to cope

Every road feels endless
Every turn feels wrong
I've been fighting these feelings
For way too long
They tell me: Be grateful, tell me: Be calm
But my hands keep trembling
I can't keep them warm

I'm trapped in my thoughts
Like a locked down room
Every breath feels heavy
Every night feels to soon
I hear all the advice, hear every claim
But none of it touches this inner strain

I'm breaking, shaking, losing control
Pain takes a piece of my broken soul
I scream inside but my mouth stays closed
Surrounded by people, but still alone
I'm fading, failing, stuck in this pain
Tears hit the floor like the cold hard rain
I'm fine they say, but you don't really know
How it hurts just to live
How it hurts just to cope

Don't call it simple, don't box me in
This isn't a story with an easy end
I'm carrying weight that you can't see
And it's crushing the part of me that used to be

I'm breaking, shaking, losing control
Pain takes a piece of my broken soul
I scream inside but my mouth stays closed
Surrounded by people, but still alone
I'm fading, failing, stuck in this pain
Tears hit the floor like the cold hard rain
I'm fine they say, but you don't really know
How it hurts just to live
How it hurts just to cope