Sinking

Every day of this winter, on the west coast beach
I wished I could have
You

To feel the rays of sunlight piercing through the clouds and crystallizing on my skin
I wanted to be surrounded by warm lies
Wrapped around my neck like your red scarf

(Too late)

Now I need to leave the ocean
My tears dissolve into the tide
They become my only makeup
Because it has been so many years
That you watched me going deeper

But now it's my turn to catch the wave
(Maybe you're going crazy)
(Time to surf?) (what wave?)
Maybe the tide will carry me to the shore

Because
You, throwing my dreams away

And everything ends up falling
(Back to reality)
And I
(Staring at my reflection)
Sinking only
(Just for you)
My thoughts keep sinking

Even if I wake up on the sand
Deep down, it doesn't matter

(You're on a deserted beach, girl)
(No one will hear you cry)

The clocks have jammed from so much salt
I lost track of how long I've been here
Watching
You, throwing my dreams away

And everything ends up falling
(Back to reality)
And I
(Staring at my reflection)
Sinking only
(Just for you)
My thoughts keep sinking

I'm going to use my last flare
So maybe you'll find me when you look at the sky
And maybe the flame won't be lost before it reaches you
Or in a very distant thought

Maybe too late

You, throw my dreams away

And everything ends up falling
(Back to reality)
And I
(Staring at my reflection)
Sinking only
(Just for you)
My thoughts keep sinking

And everything ends up falling
(Back to reality)
And I
(Staring at my reflection)
Sinking only