Louder Then Silence

They liked me quiet, liked me small
A ghost who learned to never call
I swallowed storms to keep the peace
Till something snapped inside of me
I learned young that pain stays secret
If you feel wrong, you never speak it
But silence breaks a soul in half
I'm done pretending I can't snap

You always yelled, but I stayed still
Now I shout back and I'm the villain still
Funny how your anger's normal rage
But my defense becomes a cage

I'm louder than silence now
I won't bow down, I won't shut down
You don't get to choose my volume
I won't bleed just to calm you
Call it anger, I call it trying
Call it breaking, I call it surviving
I'm louder than silence now
Louder than silence now

You say I changed and lost my grace
But I just learned to take up space
You fear a voice you once ignored
Now every word feels like a war
I shake, I pace, I hit the floor
Pain finds a door when hearts get sore
I'm not unkind, I feel too deep
This world was loud, I learned to speak

You threw fire, I held rain
Now I breathe and you feel pain
I didn't change, I came alive
It's you who hates when I survive

I'm louder than silence now
I won't bow down, I won't shut down
You don't get to choose my volume
I won't bleed just to calm you
Call it anger, I call it trying
Call it breaking, I call it surviving
I'm louder than silence now
Louder than silence now
Louder than silence now

I won't apologize to breathe
Won't fold my truth so you can sleep
I burned to learn that I deserve
A voice, a place, a beating nerve
You can judge me, point and blame
But I won't shrink to fit your frame
This fire saved me when you couldn't
I am not quiet and I know I shouldn't

I held it in, but now I roar
I broke a chair, not someone's jaw
So don't you dare define my fight
You never lived inside this mind

I'm louder than silence now
I won't bow down, I won't shut down
You don't get to choose my volume
I won't bleed just to calm you
If I shake, I'm still surviving
If I shout, I'm finally rising
I'm louder than silence
Louder than silence now
Louder than silence now

I'm not the storm, I'm just the voice
Of someone who never had a choice
Now I do, and now I choose
Enough of silence, sound is my roots
Sound is my roots