last letter

Do you still think that I'm beautiful
Or when you left did that change overnight?
I've been in ruins, delusional thinking
That I'm ever crossing your mind

I know these words ain't nothing new
You hear them, but they don't get through
'Cause hurting me was best for you
I should walk away but I'ma give it one more try

If it kills me, don't you miss me?
Can't you see that I've been crying out in every word I write?
I feel stupid 'cause it's useless
To you I'm the years that you wasted

And I'm spilling my heart on these pages
I've cried enough so I'm only gonna say it one more time
'Cause I can't do this forever
So my love, this is my last letter

I'm so aware that I torture myself
I'm at war with my head and my heart
I swear the answers were there
From the day you walked out

It's no use trying to pick them apart
You loved me once, you could again
So tell me there's a little left
'Cause I can't put this shit to bed

I should walk away but I'ma give it one more try
If it kills me, don't you miss me?
Can't you see that I've been crying out in every word I write?
I feel stupid 'cause it's useless

To you I'm the years that you wasted
And I'm spilling my heart on theses pages
I've cried enough so I'm only gonna say it one more time
'Cause I can't do this forever

So my love, this is my last letter