If Only

It's still hard to believe that you're gone
The truth is you were too sick to go on
Pictures and memories are all that we have left
Close to our hearts, where they'll always be kept

The only thing in life we are promised is death
Your soul decided to leave long before you took your last breath

The thought of your absence was our greatest fear
Now we struggle with the fact that you're no longer here

If only, if only things could have ended differently
Then maybe, maybe you'd still be here today

This isn't defeat, this is your relief from the hell you were forced to live in
Struggles you were forced to deal with
But despite your condition, not once did you consider yourself sick or suffering

The thought of your absence was our greatest fear
Now we struggle with the fact that you're no longer here

If only, if only things could have ended differently
Then maybe, maybe you'd still be here today

(If only, if only. If only, if only)
(If only, if only. If only, if only)

Not a word or a metaphor can express the pain of our broken hearts
Cancer brought us closer together, but in the end it’s was what tore us apart
But there's an overwhelming peace that you're no longer in pain
You had everything to lose, but you had everything to gain

The thought of your absence was always our greatest fear
Now we struggle with the fact that you're no longer here

If only, if only things could have ended differently
Then maybe, you'd still be here today

If only, if only things could have ended differently

(If only, if only. If only, if only)
(If only, if only. If only, if only)