In a Trance

I forgive myself
For moving in any type of way
That didn't reflect
How deep I value myself

That girl is gone
The imperatrix woke up

I loved you heavy, I stayed too long
I bent my truth, just to feel strong
I poured my light into empty hands
Trying to make someone understand

But now I see the pattern clear
I was choosing them
Over the woman in the mirror

I thought that love could make me hope
But I forgot, I already had a throne

I forgive who I had to be
To survive those lonely nights
I forgive every time I stayed
When my heart was screaming fine

But now I choose my power
Now I choose my life
I found the imperatrix
And she brought me back to life

I gave my softness to careless souls
Thinking if I loved enough
They'd finally grow

But the truth cut deep
And the truth was this
I was asking crumbs
When I was born for bliss

Every tear
Every ache in my chest
Was shaping the woman
Who finally said yes

Yes to herself
Yes to rebirth
Yes to the crown
She always deserved

I won't shrink again
Just to make love stay
I won't dim my fire
Because few got in the way, I

I feel loved who I had to be
To survive those lonely nights
I forgive every time I stayed
When my heart was screaming fine

But now I choose my power
Now I choose my life
I found the imperatrix
And she brought me back to life

She's the version of me
Who doesn't beg
Who doesn't break
Who doesn't chase she commands
She decides
She rises
He rises

Or forgive my past
I release the pain
Everything I lost
Returns in better ways

I trust the woman
I'm becoming tonight
The imperatrix
Who walks in her light