I Will Not Die

I Will Not Die
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It only hurts me when I'm awake
It seems to die with dreaming
And there's only so much that I can fake
When my whole life's careening down

I will not die

It only kills me 'cause I'm alive
And living this disaster
And it's all I can do now to survive
I live to beat my master down

I will not die
Down, I will not die

When I'm well I long to be
Only in love with you
But I guess I'll never be whole
And you know it's true

It does not stop me that we all die
I know this trip's to slaughter
But if only I could let me cry
I feel the healing water roll down

I will not die
Down, I will not die
Down, I will not die