Upon A Scarlet Sunset

This is not my life
It's a sham that has left my body atrophied
Will someone untie this noose from my neck?
This is not my life
It's a nightmare and i've been falling forever
But when my face hits the pavement i don't wake up
I'm left drowning in a pool of bile and blood

This is not my life
But of course i'll let this train wreck hit me head on this time around
Each full moon brings the same fucking mood
I can't help but be consumed

I lost what i had
I hate what i loved
I loathe what i dream
This is not my life

And i'm left staring at my own shadows in the candle light
Waiting for a change to come that probably never will