From Nothing

All that I am
Came from nothing

No lies
Story of my life
I lost it all right in front of my eyes
No time to sympathize
Push it down, internalize
Endless nights
Locked inside my mind
Nowhere to go
Just keep it to yourself

I am alive
For the first time
I didn't leave you
You left yourself behind

Tell me something
If it wasn't for the name
Would you still treat me the same
Or would you turn and walk away

There is nothing
That I'd enjoy more
Than if things could just go back
To the way they were before

But no
This will never be okay
Even when you say you'll stay
You're always gone anyway

So please
Don't make a promise you can't keep
No need to try to cry me
I promise I'm not losing sleep

All my life
I've been waiting to die
Night by night I dream of suicide
I realize
I've been trying to hide
From the monster within me
Dwelling inside

Why oh why
Did it have to be me
I've asked this endlessly
But now I finally see
I am the one to blame
For the pain and the scars
I couldn't handle my mind
So I tore it apart

If I don't believe in myself
Why would anyone else